When you need a pick me up, just laugh a little.

Today is a day to laugh, how funny are these videos?

For all intents and purposes, fortunate or un-, this is my Life ;-)~.

Breakthrough #2 Body As Energy

So, here we are. I have completely shot past the marker on the reading but I am told that my faithful followers (Ha!!!!!!!!...all four of you!) are taking a little extra time allowing the words and the feelings and the understandings to soak into your thoughts and daily lives.

We are all certainly a work in progress.

Because our group is a collective amalgamation of mothers and lovers and bargain shoppers and business women, one never knows which part of our lives will interfere not with growth, but with the sharing of that growth. In which case, I thought it might be easier to post at your convenience during the week as opposed to a specific Friday, Saturday, or Sunday (Uhm...yah, Ms. Aisis...? Those are our only days off and even those days are full ;-(. --True Story).

The other 2 things I wanted to point out is the quality of the video, which is awful, so I will enlist young Mr. Howell, that elder son of mine Angel to Jazz up the next ones. It is better isn't it though, than the first one? And the other piece that is very interesting is that there is nearly nothing long-lasting in my life other than my relationship and my children. I actually never realized the context of the easy way in which I shut people and things out of my ether as if they never existed. That thought hadn't occurred to me until I was recording the above video.

Breakthrough...?






(I just wrote the names of two of the three jewels, so... SINECA!

Lol.)





For all intents and purposes, fortunate or un-, this is my Life ;-)~.

Change is Good...

The soul carries the potential
The mind carries the intention
The brain produces the result
--Deepak Chopra

I'm not where I want to be mentally, physically, financially or metaphorically. I am, however, on the right path and I will remain steadfast ;). Along the way, I've been supported in most areas, carried in others, forced (!) into great or out of empty soul-stealing places...but I've learned and I've lost and I've laughed and I've cried (a lot!).

Throughout it all, though, I have not only loved feverishly and unselfishly but I've also been loved deeply and boldly & I wouldn't trade my life for anyone else's. Ever.

Today, I think.
Therefore, today, I am.

(Hence the self-portrait, titled: 'Thought')

For all intents and purposes, fortunate or un-, this is my Life ;-)~.

#SSF - Soul Sisters Forever

FYI...My beautiful cousin Nikki, a workaholic social worker, saving our children one tiny person at a time, will post a vlog soon ;-)~

Hey there ;-),

I am really happy that you guys decided to join this endeavor. I feel like so many different things are going on in all of our lives that we could all use a little bit of "us" time: Girl Time. We have girl time so that we are replenished and renewed, not only for ourselves, but also for the people in our lives that we love. I had an entire library of comments that I had planned to share but I had a pretty rough evening last night and the day didn't fare much better either...

But.

...miles to go before I sleep.

I can't wait to see all of your introductory videos telling us all just a little bit about one another. I have loved Ingrid and Terese for 25 and 10 years respectively and my new love Nikki, my favorite cousins beautiful wife for almost two months, is awesome and love is awesome...right?

Love is love. You have NO idea how profound those very words are to me right now.

At any rate let us explore Reinventing the Body, Resurrecting the Soul: How to Create a New You by Deepak Chopra. For the first week, we decided to do just the first chapter, however, I have read nearly half of the book. I have a thirst for knowledge, to be better, to understand why I feel the need to do the things that I do when I know these things should not be done.

Complex, right?

I will post questions, please feel free to do the same; I am but a catalyst...an Equestrian if you will, I can lead a horse to water but I cannot make him drink (that's clever, yes? it's actually a song from the late 80's, lol..."you should have beeeeeen with meeee, instead I'm alone and lonelaaaaaay...- lonely only way drawn out - maybe it was Pat Benatar...I don't remember). I was elated to know that you guys wanted to share the drinking well with me.

Question 1: When you are in the midst of that, "I am seriously having a moment moment, how do you crawl your way out of it, or have you not found that space in which you are able to crawl, walk, run head long feet first out of it...?" And if you haven't found that, do you anticipate that you will?

---For me, and this is very new, I start muttering positive words to myself. After I recognized that those words were very helpful, I began to write them down in all of the places that I pass by, in my house. I write it on the mirrors (I have quite a few mirrors), on a few chalkboard painted circles in my newly decorated office, on my notebooks and note cards, with my pinky on the shower wall when the room has steamed to a blur and I am standing there bawling for no real reason...I write it everywhere and I say it to remind my inner Lola, the crazy person who is my alter ego and lives mainly in my head, that I am on a beautiful uplifting path: subtle changes.

I utter subtle changes.

Sound familiar, if not keep reading!

FROM BREAKDOWN TO BREAKTHROUGH - The first breakthrough chapter is below, I hope you guys have read UP TO that part ;)~

Question 2: The 1st Chapter is titled: Your Physical Body is a Fiction. Religious or not, and I am not, although I love the Lord and his son baby Jesus (Amen...Hallelujah!)...so correct me if I am wrong, but I do believe most religions speak to this truth. Our bodies are simply flesh, it is the soul that is real. How did you walk through those first few pages?

--Admittedly, I misunderstood the meaning, at first blush. My assumption was that I had stumbled onto a seriously existential path of enlightenment and not being versed in such, I was intimidated. But I didn't stop reading. I understood what he meant after a few more sentences and I embraced it.

Question 3: The sentence that sort of sent me into a calm space, so to speak, was "Breakthroughs occur when you start thinking about a problem in a fresh new way." Did that have any effect on you and if not, was there a sentence, word, paragraph that struck you in a profound way?

--First, I love how every chapter expresses the word 'breakthrough'. Secondly, for some reason, reading those words shifted something inside my mind and it was as if all of a sudden the light was turned on. I wondered though, and Im curious to know if you also pondered...how on earth do you start thinking about a problem differently than you had been and the pages that followed answered that question for me. Third, I INVENTED myself. How incredibly AWESOME is that? This by no means is a cheerleading session for me (uhm #TeamAyesha anyone? lol) but an ah-ha moment, an epiphany if you will. I invented the woman I am today, therefore I can invent the woman I am going to be tomorrow. Is that not the most awesome thought ever? It is ALL in our hands. It is a choice. Make the right choice...

Question 4: Did you feel a bit of sadness at the "messenger molecules". I seriously had no idea that being upset/depressed/angry quite literally changed your DNA for the worse...what did you feel, if anything, about the process of life and gene adaptation according to your happiness, sadness, grief, and joy.

--The fact that one's emotional level can be actively viewed during an MRI, amply blows me away. Yes, I have an iPhone and should not be awe struck at every technologically enhanced instance, but ya know what...medical advances keep me in awe-struck mode.

Comment: "The secret is to open yourself up. You never know where the next breakthrough will come. The door opens, and from that moment on, your life is transformed." Help me baby Jesus, no word of a lie, I must have stayed on page 16 for an hour just thinking about those words. If you have had a similar experience please share, if you are not comfy, because you don't know each other yet, then please email me and tell me if you had one of those moments.

I've had a few. Lol.

Quiz: Are you Ready for Change...What was your score? My score was a 23. It says that I have embraced personal transformation as a major gaol in life and I want to change as rapidly as possible.

Fits me to a T.

It is 4:14 am and I am now completely exhausted. I love you all, as you are readily aware, and please post with comments/questions, at any time.

Stay thirsty my friends...

For all intents and purposes, fortunate or un-, this is my Life ;-)~