I think (or thought, as it were), therefore, I am.

Last night I prayed.
At 2:47 AM.
Heavily.
Wholeheartedly.
Desperately.

...because I am thankful and I needed to talk to God.

Ever since I was a 9-year old little girl, attending Law School and becoming an Attorney, was but a dream. Lord, if I am worthy, let it be your will. And until recently, it was a flight of fancy. Me? Ayesha. Moore? A practicing attorney…at Law?

Yeah.

Ok.

Last night I prayed.
At 2:47 AM.
Eagerly.
Purposely.
Deeply.

...because I am grateful for his grace and I needed to praise Him.

So often people make requests, and I took pains Not to inquire and even within my carefully chosen words, I did ask. I bargained for a clearer path, I appealed for a more mature mind, I advocated my need to be a better person, a much better person, a less-selfish, more giving, understanding, human being. I am not perfect, I make many many mistakes and I truly suffer for them, if that is of any consolation, to anyone I have wronged.

And I know you are out there, somewhere.

Reading between these *learned lines.

Last night I prayed.
At 2:47 AM.
Inwardly.
Outwardly.
Intently.

...because I had an overwhelming need to express my gratitude; weep my appreciation.

Climbing out of the pain, I promised a focused mind and a thankful soul, reassuring Him that these were the reasons for my call. Promises. Not broken. I will not be broken. In spite of it all.

I declared financial victory standing firm, head held high to the boundaries that must be overcome. I put forth my plan, took a leap of faith and claimed the win. I learned my lesson and I secured His forgiveness. I am elevated.

Still waters.

But...last night, I prayed and I prayed hard.
At 2:47 AM.
Powerfully.
Fully.
Justly.

...and then I studied, again, for the hour infinitum, until 4:47 AM, just to get it right, to make sure that when my Law Professor (faint!) points to me and forces me to stand, speak my name and give an affirmative answer, a Yes or a No, nothing in between, nothing on the fence, I will be, if not correct, at least prepared. I prayed, not because I want to attend Law School, but because I am attending Law School.

And ready, I am.

For all intents and purposes, fortunate or –un, this is my Life ;-)~. Aisis

(This signature, created years and years ago, has more meaning, right now, in this place, than anyone will ever know.)



*learned (lur-nid): well-read, academic, cultured.