Saturday, September 18, 2021

A Wolf in Wolves Clothing



iAm

We are

     but humans for the world to see

There’s millions of others

But this world, in this moment

Is between only you and little ole me


And 


We are healers. 

And

Hustlers.

We know where not

And 

Where to

     Be.


And we never change our clothes

Warrior Pose

Standing in this truth & bliss

I am Isis in this land.

And.

You are.

Osiris.


I wish I had words; a soliloquy of Wisdom &

Magic & Pleasure & Pain.

Nuzzling close howling for the moon, our souls

Laugh And Love And Bond

In the rain.


We can shed the skin

Let our red wolves free

Run fast through the night

Ears up high, teeth bared for a fight

But there’s no one in sight.

There’s nothing to see.


Breathe…


It’s just you and it’s just me.

Your third eye is not blind.

I cleave unto thee.


I shared your dreams last night

Broken and brash

I tip-toed through your soul

You tossed and you turned

It felt so cold

And I sheltered the Beauty in the Beast 

As best I could.


From the power of seeing his face and 

Calling his name in the light…

It gives me a chill, even as I write.


Because he was there 

I saw him dancing on your skin

The smile on your face

It displayed the peace within and your brow,

It furrowed.

You thought he disappeared

You cleared water from your eyes and he was still there. 

And peace washed over

From the soles of your feet to the tips of your hair.


Sleep…


I want to erase the crippling grip

I wanna hit a J

And 

Take you away

Somewhere among the trees; just up and dip.


But that is not what this life is.


Here.

We are humans.

And healers.

And hustlers.

In one way or another.


We are sons and daughters;

We are mothers and fathers;

We are sisters and he’s not heavy

He is your baby brother.


Breathe.


And because we cannot change what is 

We bend, 

     And 

        We breathe, 

     And

        We accept, 

     And

         We adapt,

     And

        We heal.


And 

So

I send you earth, and fire, and water, and air.

I send you love, and light, and balance, and care.


I send you the strength of the gods because you are taking your place. 

I send you freedom and growth for the days and weeks that you will face.

I send you sunshine and rain, in looming disaster 

I send you wellness and peace as you become a *Master.


I send you tins, and gourds, and vessels, and jars

To hold your tears and fears and all the broken parts.


I send you my unshattered heart; and unending love. 

Use them well when your own has cracked or have simply had enough. 

I send you honesty and anger and I send you grace.


And when it flows over, we will meet in that place.

And

We will howl at the 🌚 moon.



Holding. Space. 


Indefinitely.





*Laura Charles : I thought that maybe it would be a great idea if I got myself a bodyguard. You know, like someone to guard my body? What girl could do worse than to have her own real life kung fu master?

Leroy Green : I am no master.

Laura Charles : You sure look like a master to me.



Sunday, February 14, 2021

*Hail Mary



You wanted a different woman but refused to be a different man. 

Make 

it 

make 

sense.

Only the broken revel in anger

Playing sinister in games

I tame anger for a living

We are not the same.


Threats are weak

Numb to its effect

Like no one you've ever encountered

You misinterpret inept

You don't understand women

You misunderstand the depth.

And.

I. Told. You. So.


Never sought to destroy

I am no Helen of Troy

You're a shallow little Man

Such a sad little boy.


I am immune to the Beast

My light burns bright

I don’t fear men

Intimidated by my light.


Because I am free

And 

You would like to be

I tried

You lied

Your words have no meaning, you see.

**Matthew 7:23

“I ain’t a killa; but don’t push me...”


Coward







**I never knew you

Depart from me

Ye that work

Iniquity.



*Hail Mary - Tupac Shakur


Wednesday, January 20, 2021

Face of a Goddess; Too Bright Without Shades

She feared nothing, taking a final deep breath.

And.

She.

Soared.







Unequipped then, unequipped now.

Turn the light off.

Love don’t live here anymore.

Thursday, December 10, 2020

Jazmine Sullivan Performs ‘Lost Ones’ & ‘Pick Up Your Feelings’ | Soul T...

When your past meets your present.


"Pick Up Your Feelings"

You say that I've been actin' different, yeah
Funny how I finally flipped the script on you
When you the one who's double-dippin', yeah
You so sloppy, how I caught you slippin' up
You're off the lease, run me my keys
No more poppin' up to hit it, yeah
I ain't even got the miles to trip on you

New phone (Who is this?)
Brand new, like the whip
Rack it up, no assist
Main bitch I ain't average
Wake up, need a zip
Hennessy take a sip
I got my jeans, I'm too thick
I ain't got the room for extra baggage

Don't forget to come and pick up your, ooh, feelings
Don't leave no pieces (Oh, oh)
You need to hurry and pick up your, ooh, ooh, feelings
While I'm up cleaning

Boy please, I don't need it (I don't need it)
Memories, all that shit, you can keep it (Oh, oh)
Don't forget to come and pick up your, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, feelings
Don't leave no pieces (Oh)

Oh, I'm tryna find a fuck to give for you
You ran out of chances of forgivin', yeah
Yeah, listen, I ain't listenin'
Just for you to go and break my heart again
I learned my lesson (Last time)
Woah, and I ain't comin' (Back now)
This is what you had now (Had now)
And I bet you I look better, don't I?

New phone, who is this?
Contact? Don't exist
Need a ride? Call that bitch
Gas way too expensive
No more, benefits
Pop-up visits
Hands tied, no grip
I ain't got the room for extra baggage

So don't forget to come and pick up your, ooh, feelings
And don't leave no pieces (Hey, ayy)
You need to hurry and pick up your, ooh, ooh (Pick up your), feelings
While I'm up cleaning (Oh, oh)

Boy please, I don't need you
Oh, oh, memories, all that shit, you can keep it (Oh, oh)
Don't forget to come and pick up your, oh feelings
Don't leave no pieces (Oh)

Put a lock on the door where my heart once was, hmm
Boy you had your fun
But I had enough
Now I'm really done
I deserve so much more than you gave to me
So now I'm savin' me
And I made my peace
So you can run them streets

Don't forget to come and pick up your, ooh, feelings
And don't leave no pieces (Don't leave no)
You need to hurry and pick up your, ooh, ooh, feelings
While I'm up cleaning

Boy please (Boy please, oh, oh, oh), I don't need you (I don't need you)
All that shit (All that shit), you can keep it (You can keep it), I don't need it (I don't need it)
Don't forget (Don't forget) to come and pick up your, oh feelings (Oh pick up your feelings)
Don't leave no pieces
Oh, oh, oh woah

Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh

Thursday, September 24, 2020

Happy Fifty-Fine To Me ♾🖤♾



I literally have no words.
I am the happiest girl in the whole wide world!


 This is one of the happiest birthdays, ever.

Wishes come true ❤️.

Monday, November 4, 2019

I Don’t Need You

She is the calm summer breeze
Above it all
Secure in her stature
Beyond the norm

Rarely demanding
Knowing where she stands
Her grace
Is an art form

iAm all seasons
Chaotic yet composed
iAm before and after
Ice-, hail-, wind-
Rain

Storm

-

She is sugar and spice
And everything nice
Her every wish is your command

iAm fire and ice
Coquettish, rarely playing nice
Independent
A firebrand

iAm on my own
I walk alone
And that way I walk far
To forget me is a torment
The resist is torture
Because casual smokers
Crave a Cuban cigar

-

I shoot for the moon
I’m everything for everyone
My cup runneth under
And no one lends a helping hand

There’s no return on their
Investment
My request deemed as demand

Or just because the benefit would only be mine
And I hear that all the time
But
She is connected and belonged full time
iAm on my own
I am my own paradigm

And still
I stand
The opposite of the norm
iAm the tattooed beauty
Warm, misty, serene
iAm the Storm


Tuesday, September 24, 2019

This is 49.

Happy Birthday To Me.
2019


I wasn't so sure I'd make it...here's to living the life I was meant to live.

This One.

"Midnight Train To Georgia"

L.A. proved too much for the man
(Too much for the man, he couldn't make it)
So he's leaving a life he's come to know, ooh
(He said he's going)
He said he's going back to find
(Going back to find)
Ooh, what's left of his world
The world he left behind not so long ago

He's leaving
(Leaving)
On that midnight train to Georgia, yeah
(Leaving on the midnight train)
Said he's going back
(Going back to find)
To a simpler place and time, oh yes he is
(Whenever he takes that ride, guess who's gonna be right by his side)
I'll be with him
(I know you will)
On that midnight train to Georgia
(Leaving on a midnight train to Georgia, woo woo)
I'd rather live in his world
(Live in his world)
Than live without him in mine
(Her world is his, his and hers alone)

He kept dreaming
(Dreaming)
Ooh, that some day he'd be a star
(A superstar, but he didn't get far)
But he sure found out the hard way
That dreams don't always come true, oh no, uh uh
(Dreams don't always come true, uh uh, no, uh uh)
So he pawned down his hopes
(Woo, woo, woo-woo)
And even sold his old car
(Woo, woo, woo-woo)
Bought a one way ticket back to the life he once knew
Oh yes he did, he said he would

Oh-oh, he's leaving
(Leaving)
On that midnight train to Georgia, yeah
(Leaving on a midnight train)
Said he's going back to find, ooh
(Going back to find)
A simpler place and time, ooh, yeah
(Whenever he takes that ride, guess who's gonna be right by his side)
I'm gonna be with him
(I know you will)
On that midnight train to Georgia
(Leaving on a midnight train to Georgia, woo woo)
I'd rather live in his world
(Live in his world)
Than live without him in mine
(Her world is his, his and hers alone)

Ooh, he's leaving
(Leaving)
On the midnight train to Georgia, yeah, ooh y'all
(Leaving on the midnight train)
Said he's going back to find
(Going back to find)
Ooh, a simpler place and time, ooh y'all, uh-huh
(Whenever he takes that ride, guess who's gonna be right by his side)
I've got to be with him
(I know you will)
On that midnight train to Georgia
(Leaving on a midnight train to Georgia, woo woo)
I'd rather live in his world
(Live in his world)
Than live without him in mine
(Her world is his, his and hers alone)

For love, gonna board the midnight train to ride
For love, gonna board, gotta board the midnight train to go
For love, gonna board, uh huh, the midnight train to go
My world, his world, our world, mine and his alone
My world, his world, our world, mine and his alone
I got to go
I got to go
I got to go, hey
I got to go
I got to go
My world, his world, my man, his girl
I got to go
I got to go, oh
I got to go
My world, his world, our world, his girl

Sunday, April 21, 2019

Still Standing.



I didn’t know what this health scare would do to me but here I am, uniquely bent; I don’t break and utterly hormonal.

Learning this temporary new normal.

The part of me that defined womanhood; the part where I believed in feminine energy and love was ripped away, in so many ways, on two separate days and I had no choice.
It doesn’t matter.

I am brave with my life and I am unafraid to fail.
Believing in that love was a fail.
I didn’t know what to expect and the real complications that have since appeared reiterate why it’s difficult to deal with mental, physical and financial issues, in solitude.

But, I’m good.
~
No. I’m not.
I’m not good, but I want to be...

Because that’s who I am and I put on a brave face when it hurts so bad that I can’t breathe and I can’t see anyone for millennia.

And I don’t want to see you for millennia.
Or the thereafter.

Because that too, was a lie.

I neither want nor desire any sort of pity or sacrifice, so don’t bother with the nuisance of it all. Keep my love. You need it more than I do.

I just need the physical strength I could always count on that disappeared when you did.
And.
Unlike most others; I do have time.





Sunday, April 7, 2019

...It Was All A Dream.


She woke up
No longer a super girl living in a super world
Bizarro
Everything was upside-down.

She looked up
The sun no longer shone
But she wasn’t cold
Because it was never there to begin with

Sacrifice.

She made it bright
And didn’t shade; she wasn't blind.

So she listened.
Twice.
The words stabbing the backs of her eyes
Allowing the leaks to pour
Seeing the truth
Curtains pulled from the booth
The wizard was just a man.

A broken little boy
The emperor with no clothes
And all she wanted was the rose
And the promise of no lies.

What a fool was she
Believing that he...
When it was all but a ruse.

May she remove
All memories, Gambit.
Thy mate is Rogue.

And.

#iAm #TheStorm
Ororo. Munroe.
I live here. By choice.
You may Marvel from afar.


Smallville.
A DC Universe.

Christopher Reeves died a long time ago, anyway.






Friday, November 23, 2018

Full Moon.

The Moon has a profound effect on me 🌑. I am thankful for Life and for Love. 

Ayesha is Life.

Same me; new degrees...Numerology.

&

Love is always the answer.


Saturday, October 20, 2018

Accomplishments of the Previous Administration 

50 accomplishments of the Obama Administration (https://washingtonmonthly.com/magazine/januaryfebruary-2017/obamas-top-50-accomplishments-revisited/ for any updates)

(Also check out the main article, The Incomplete Greatness of Barack Obama, and the issue’s Editor’s Note.)

1. Passed Health Care Reform: After five presidents over a century failed to create universal health insurance, signed the Affordable Care Act (2010). It will cover 32 million uninsured Americans beginning in 2014 and mandates a suite of experimental measures to cut health care cost growth, the number one cause of America’s long-term fiscal problems.

2. Passed the Stimulus: Signed $787 billion American Recovery and Reinvestment Act in 2009 to spur economic growth amid greatest recession since the Great Depression. Weeks after stimulus went into effect, unemployment claims began to subside. Twelve months later, the private sector began producing more jobs than it was losing, and it has continued to do so for twenty-three straight months, creating a total of nearly 3.7 million new private-sector jobs.

3. Passed Wall Street Reform: Signed the Dodd-Frank Wall Street Reform and Consumer Protection Act (2010) to re-regulate the financial sector after its practices caused the Great Recession. The new law tightens capital requirements on large banks and other financial institutions, requires derivatives to be sold on clearinghouses and exchanges, mandates that large banks provide "living wills" to avoid chaotic bankruptcies, limits their ability to trade with customers’ money for their own profit, and creates the Consumer Financial Protection Bureau (now headed by Richard Cordray) to crack down on abusive lending products and companies.

4. Ended the War in Iraq: Ordered all U.S. military forces out of the country. Last troops left on December 18, 2011.

5. Began Drawdown of War in Afghanistan: From a peak of 101,000 troops in June 2011, U.S. forces are now down to 91,000, with 23,000 slated to leave by the end of summer 2012. According to Secretary of Defense Leon Panetta, the combat mission there will be over by next year. 

6. Eliminated Osama bin laden: In 2011, ordered special forces raid of secret compound in Abbottabad, Pakistan, in which the terrorist leader was killed and a trove of al-Qaeda documents was discovered.

7. Turned Around U.S. Auto Industry: In 2009, injected $62 billion in federal money (on top of $13.4 billion in loans from the Bush administration) into ailing GM and Chrysler in return for equity stakes and agreements for massive restructuring. Since bottoming out in 2009, the auto industry has added more than 100,000 jobs. In 2011, the Big Three automakers all gained market share for the first time in two decades. The government expects to lose $16 billion of its investment, less if the price of the GM stock it still owns increases.

8. Recapitalized Banks: In the midst of financial crisis, approved controversial Treasury Department plan to lure private capital into the country’s largest banks via "stress tests" of their balance sheets and a public-private fund to buy their "toxic" assets. Got banks back on their feet at essentially zero cost to the government.

9. Repealed "Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell": Ended 1990s-era restriction and formalized new policy allowing gays and lesbians to serve openly in the military for the first time.

10. Toppled Moammar Gaddafi: In March 2011, joined a coalition of European and Arab governments in military action, including air power and naval blockade, against Gaddafi regime to defend Libyan civilians and support rebel troops. Gaddafi’s forty-two-year rule ended when the dictator was overthrown and killed by rebels on October 20, 2011. No American lives were lost.

11. Told Mubarak to Go: On February 1, 2011, publicly called on Egyptian President Hosni Mubarak to accept reform or step down, thus weakening the dictator’s position and putting America on the right side of the Arab Spring. Mubarak ended thirty-year rule when overthrown on February 11.

12. Reversed Bush Torture Policies: Two days after taking office, nullified Bush-era rulings that had allowed detainees in U.S. custody to undergo certain "enhanced" interrogation techniques considered inhumane under the Geneva Conventions. Also released the secret Bush legal rulings supporting the use of these techniques.

13. Improved America’s Image Abroad: With new policies, diplomacy, and rhetoric, reversed a sharp decline in world opinion toward the U.S. (and the corresponding loss of "soft power") during the Bush years. From 2008 to 2011, favorable opinion toward the United States rose in ten of fifteen countries surveyed by the Pew Global Attitudes Project, with an average increase of 26 percent.

14. Kicked Banks Out of Federal Student Loan Program, Expanded Pell Grant Spending: As part of the 2010 health care reform bill, signed measure ending the wasteful decades-old practice of subsidizing banks to provide college loans. Starting July 2010 all students began getting their federal student loans directly from the federal government. Treasury will save $67 billion over ten years, $36 billion of which will go to expanding Pell Grants to lower-income students.

15. Created Race to the Top: With funds from stimulus, started $4.35 billion program of competitive grants to encourage and reward states for education reform.

16. Boosted Fuel Efficiency Standards: Released new fuel efficiency standards in 2011 that will nearly double the fuel economy for cars and trucks by 2025.

17. Coordinated International Response to Financial Crisis: To keep world economy out of recession in 2009 and 2010, helped secure from G-20 nations more than $500 billion for the IMF to provide lines of credit and other support to emerging market countries, which kept them liquid and avoided crises with their currencies.

18. Passed Mini Stimuli: To help families hurt by the recession and spur the economy as stimulus spending declined, signed series of measures (July 22, 2010; December 17, 2010; December 23, 2011) to extend unemployment insurance and cut payroll taxes.

19. Began Asia "Pivot": In 2011, reoriented American military and diplomatic priorities and focus from the Middle East and Europe to the Asian-Pacific region. Executed multipronged strategy of positively engaging China while reasserting U.S. leadership in the region by increasing American military presence and crafting new commercial, diplomatic, and military alliances with neighboring countries made uncomfortable by recent Chinese behavior.

20. Increased Support for Veterans: With so many soldiers coming home from Iraq and Iran with serious physical and mental health problems, yet facing long waits for services, increased 2010 Department of Veterans Affairs budget by 16 percent and 2011 budget by 10 percent. Also signed new GI bill offering $78 billion in tuition assistance over a decade, and provided multiple tax credits to encourage businesses to hire veterans.

21. Tightened Sanctions on Iran: In effort to deter Iran’s nuclear program, signed Comprehensive Iran Sanctions, Accountability, and Divestment Act (2010) to punish firms and individuals who aid Iran’s petroleum sector. In late 2011 and early 2012, coordinated with other major Western powers to impose sanctions aimed at Iran’s banks and with Japan, South Korea, and China to shift their oil purchases away from Iran.

22. Created Conditions to Begin Closing Dirtiest Power Plants: New EPA restrictions on mercury and toxic pollution, issued in December 2011, likely to lead to the closing of between sixty-eight and 231 of the nation’s oldest and dirtiest coal-fired power plants. Estimated cost to utilities: at least $11 billion by 2016. Estimated health benefits: $59 billion to $140 billion. Will also significantly reduce carbon emissions and, with other regulations, comprises what’s been called Obama’s "stealth climate policy."

23. Passed Credit Card Reforms: Signed the Credit Card Accountability, Responsibility, and Disclosure Act (2009), which prohibits credit card companies from raising rates without advance notification, mandates a grace period on interest rate increases, and strictly limits overdraft and other fees.

24. Eliminated Catch-22 in Pay Equality Laws: Signed Lilly Ledbetter Fair Pay Act in 2009, giving women who are paid less than men for the same work the right to sue their employers after they find out about the discrimination, even if that discrimination happened years ago. Under previous law, as interpreted by the Supreme Court in Ledbetter v. Goodyear Tire & Rubber Co., the statute of limitations on such suits ran out 180 days after the alleged discrimination occurred, even if the victims never knew about it.

25. Protected Two Liberal Seats on the U.S. Supreme Court: Nominated and obtained confirmation for Sonia Sotomayor, the first Hispanic and third woman to serve, in 2009; and Elena Kagan, the fourth woman to serve, in 2010. They replaced David Souter and John Paul Stevens, respectively.

26. Improved Food Safety System: In 2011, signed FDA Food Safety Modernization Act, which boosts the Food and Drug Administration’s budget by $1.4 billion and expands its regulatory responsibilities to include increasing number of food inspections, issuing direct food recalls, and reviewing the current food safety practices of countries importing products into America.

27. Achieved New START Treaty: Signed with Russia (2010) and won ratification in Congress (2011) of treaty that limits each country to 1,550 strategic warheads (down from 2,200) and 700 launchers (down from more than 1,400), and reestablished and strengthened a monitoring and transparency program that had lapsed in 2009, through which each country can monitor the other.

28. Expanded National Service: Signed Serve America Act in 2009, which authorized a tripling of the size of AmeriCorps. Program grew 13 percent to 85,000 members across the country by 2012, when new House GOP majority refused to appropriate more funds for further expansion.

29. Expanded Wilderness and Watershed Protection: Signed Omnibus Public Lands Management Act (2009), which designated more than 2 million acres as wilderness, created thousands of miles of recreational and historic trails, and protected more than 1,000 miles of rivers.

30. Gave the FDA Power to Regulate Tobacco: Signed the Family Smoking Prevention and Tobacco Control Act (2009). Nine years in the making and long resisted by the tobacco industry, the law mandates that tobacco manufacturers disclose all ingredients, obtain FDA approval for new tobacco products, and expand the size and prominence of cigarette warning labels, and bans the sale of misleadingly labeled "light" cigarette brands and tobacco sponsorship of entertainment events.

31. Pushed Federal Agencies to Be Green Leaders: Issued executive order in 2009 requiring all federal agencies to make plans to soften their environmental impacts by 2020. Goals include 30 percent reduction in fleet gasoline use, 26 percent boost in water efficiency, and sustainability requirements for 95 percent of all federal contracts. Because federal government is the country’s single biggest purchaser of goods and services, likely to have ripple effects throughout the economy for years to come.

32. Passed Fair Sentencing Act: Signed 2010 legislation that reduces sentencing disparity between crack versus powder cocaine possessionfrom100 to1 to 18 to1.

33. Trimmed and Reoriented Missile Defense: Cut the Reagan-era "Star Wars" missile defense budget, saving $1.4 billion in 2010, and canceled plans to station antiballistic missile systems in Poland and the Czech Republic in favor of sea-based defense plan focused on Iran and North Korea.

34. Began Post-Post-9/11 Military Builddown: After winning agreement from congressional Republicans and Democrats in summer 2011 budget deal to reduce projected defense spending by $450 billion, proposed new DoD budget this year with cuts of that size and a new national defense strategy that would shrink ground forces from 570,000 to 490,000 over the next ten years while increasing programs in intelligence gathering and cyberwarfare.

35. Let Space Shuttle Die and Killed Planned Moon Mission: Allowed the expensive ($1 billion per launch), badly designed, dangerous shuttle program to make its final launch on July 8, 2011. Cut off funding for even more bloated and problem-plagued Bush-era Constellation program to build moon base in favor of support for private-sector low-earth orbit ventures, research on new rocket technologies for long-distance manned flight missions, and unmanned space exploration, including the largest interplanetary rover ever launched, which will investigate Mars’s potential to support life.

36. Invested Heavily in Renewable Technology: As part of the 2009 stimulus, invested $90 billion, more than any previous administration, in research on smart grids, energy efficiency, electric cars, renewable electricity generation, cleaner coal, and biofuels.

37. Crafting Next-Generation School Tests: Devoted $330 million in stimulus money to pay two consortia of states and universities to create competing versions of new K-12 student performance tests based on latest psychometric research. New tests could transform the learning environment in vast majority of public school classrooms beginning in 2014.

38. Cracked Down on Bad For-Profit Colleges: In effort to fight predatory practices of some for-profit colleges, Department of Education issued "gainful employment" regulations in 2011 cutting off commercially focused schools from federal student aid funding if more than 35 percent of former students aren’t paying off their loans and/or if the average former student spends more than 12 percent of his or her total earnings servicing student loans.

39. Improved School Nutrition: In coordination with Michelle Obama, signed Healthy Hunger-Free Kids Act in 2010 mandating $4.5 billion spending boost and higher nutritional and health standards for school lunches. New rules based on the law, released in January, double the amount of fruits and vegetables and require only whole grains in food served to students.

40. Expanded Hate Crimes Protections: Signed Hate Crimes Prevention Act (2009), which expands existing hate crime protections to include crimes based on a victim’s sexual orientation, gender, or disability, in addition to race, color, religion, or national origin.

41. Avoided Scandal: As of November 2011, served longer than any president in decades without a scandal, as measured by the appearance of the word "scandal" (or lack thereof) on the front page of the Washington Post.

42. Brokered Agreement for Speedy Compensation to Victims of Gulf Oil Spill: Though lacking statutory power to compel British Petroleum to act, used moral authority of his office to convince oil company to agree in 2010 to a $20 billion fund to compensate victims of the Deepwater Horizon oil spill in the Gulf of Mexico; $6.5 billion already paid out without lawsuits. By comparison, it took nearly two decades for plaintiffs in the Exxon Valdez Alaska oil spill case to receive $1.3 billion.

43. Created Recovery.gov: Web site run by independent board of inspectors general looking for fraud and abuse in stimulus spending, provides public with detailed information on every contract funded by $787 billion American Recovery and Reinvestment Act. Thanks partly to this transparency, board has uncovered very little fraud, and Web site has become national model: "The stimulus has done more to promote transparency at almost all levels of government than any piece of legislation in recent memory," reports Governing magazine.

44. Pushed Broadband Coverage: Proposed and obtained in 2011 Federal Communications Commission approval for a shift of $8 billion in subsidies away from landlines and toward broadband Internet for lower-income rural families.

45. Expanded Health Coverage for Children: Signed 2009 Children’s Health Insurance Authorization Act, which allows the Children’s Health Insurance Program (CHIP) to cover health care for 4 million more children, paid for by a tax increase on tobacco products.

46. Recognized the Dangers of Carbon Dioxide: In 2009, EPA declared carbon dioxide a pollutant, allowing the agency to regulate its production.

47. Expanded Stem Cell Research: In 2009, eliminated the Bush-era restrictions on embryonic stem cell research, which shows promise in treating spinal injuries, among many other areas.

48. Provided Payment to Wronged Minority Farmers: In 2009, signed Claims Resolution Act, which provided $4.6 billion in funding for a legal settlement with black and Native American farmers who the government cheated out of loans and natural resource royalties in years past.

49. Helped South Sudan Declare Independence: Helped South Sudan Declare Independence: Appointed two envoys to Sudan and personally attended a special UN meeting on the area. Through U.S. ambassador to the United Nations Ambassador Susan Rice, helped negotiate a peaceful split in 2011.

50. Killed the F-22: In 2009, ended further purchases of Lockheed Martin single-seat, twin-engine, fighter aircraft, which cost $358 million apiece. Though the military had 187 built, the plane has never flown a single combat mission. Eliminating it saved $4 billion.

Wednesday, September 12, 2018

Monday, September 10, 2018

Anew

Edit

Don’t call me; I don’t want to talk

Don’t visit; I neither want nor need company

I realized today that unlike any other time in my life

I am alone.

Completely.

I refuse to turn back the hands of time 

There’s only loss & selfishness when I think of those I loved

They

Are 

In the past

And only

A reminder of all that I was or could have been

I’m not looking back, though

Only looking forward

And

I don’t see you.

Any of you.

I only see me.


Friday, July 27, 2018

I am the Light

The light was on and you never showed.

I get it.

What was reaped

Is now sowed.

Live and learn.

Life happens.

Saturday, June 2, 2018

Hello, June!

Setting goals; making things happen! 

Being positive and thanking God for the gifts & blessings.

Oh...and ⚾️ #RedSoxNation! ⚾️

Wednesday, May 30, 2018

Just Because

This morning was *ungood; it was difficult. The afternoon was rewarding. 



Monday, May 28, 2018

Memorial Day, Origins

Memorial Day began w/formerly enslaved blacks 

honoring their dead, the Union Soldiets, that gave their lives in battle. 

(circa. May 1865) Charleston, South Carolina

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This is 47.

My own Monday Motivation: #DoDopeShyt and keep your secrets sacred.

Be. Dope. And. Do. Dope. Shyt*.




*Writer’s license.

Sunday, May 27, 2018

I’m Tired but It’s Well Hidden

I’m not number one to anyone, anymore but my own self and I’m fairly certain that I never was number one and that’s ok. It’s ok because this means I don’t have any responsibility to anyone, which is strange, but no one has any responsibility toward me either. This is not new to me, even though in my heart of hearts I would like to believe that at one point I was number one to someone.

I was not. And I have minimal regrets on that one.

Now, I could go into detail but I’m not in the going-into-detail mood. But if I don’t speak this out it could fester. When I allow that kind of pain, it doesn’t end well for me and I know my heart; I must...no one else cares to, and those aren’t words to either revel in or begin a pity party for, it simply is.

The truth is that I prefer this right now to the alternative, which is disingenuous. On the first day of law school I was informed that the life of a legal eagle was a soloist trek unless the life we lived had more meat than fat. The fat will be trimmed We were warned. It was, and I am better for it left with a tougher sort of meat that I prefer to see as muscle* 😂. 

If you’re here right now you probably read my "Recurring Themes" post and so you understand that there is no longer a best-friend to share these things with and my very close friends, that are still best friends, just not like, ¡HER!, are living different lives and my existence is supporting cast.

I am no star in these roles...even though I totally look the part 😏...


Who am I to expect someone to understand my life and its goings-on as I understand theirs? They’ve never lived my existence and they are not empathic or unicorn-souled or mermaid-like.

It’s not their fault**.

And I’m tired. Not in these photos, because public and private personas differ.

I’m tired y’all. Of everyone and everything and I’m shutting off, going down deep, being silent and solo for a short bit.

It’s what I call - Underground. 

It’s what I do to reignite my soul.

I’m tired of waiting for people to get up to speed.

I’m tired of giving people the benefit of the doubt and being disappointed.

I’m tired of being people’s last thought, consideration, focus. 

I’m tired of people.

And

I need to disappear.




* Goal weight of 129lbs accomplished.

** Yes it is...understanding is a choice.



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