Çälifôrñįā
#BucketListLine4CheckedOff
This post is about me and my finishing ONE of the very most difficult tasks of my entire adult life.
One.
I have accomplished a number of things that I am extremely proud of, one of course being the published novel I so slaved over...the other being the final accomplishment of completing this law degree that I worked so desperately to covet.
Long days, long nights
No weekends or holidays
No semblance of a life
Two or three short breaks:
Hookahs & Hose (bourgeoisie inside joke)
Blonde hair & afros
Concealed beverages & Patron
Family & friends, beginnings and ends
Cancelled plans, missed celebrations
Relationships on the mend
And sometimes, like today...like this very moment in time, in all of my exhaustion, all of the stress finally seeping from my pores...I can't say with complete conviction that it was worth it, not yet.
I am in tears; joy-filled. I think. I can't decipher because it's all so new. I am relieved; yet I am filled with an over over-abundance of something...
joy - regret - trepidation - determination
I still must pass the BAR.
So, then there's that.
Only.
Time.
Will.
Tell.
#MOOD
#iAmMoreThanAConquerer
#BloodSweatTears
You're on your own
In a world you've grown
Few more years to go,
Don't let the hurdle fall
So be the girl you loved,
Be the girl you loved
I'll wait
So show me why you're strong
Ignore everybody else,
We're alone now
I'll wait
So show me why you're strong
Ignore everybody else,
We're alone now
Suddenly, I'm hit
Is this darkness of the dawn?
And your friends are gone
And your friends won't come
So show me where you fit
So show me where you fit
I'll wait
So show me why you're strong
Ignore everybody else,
We're alone now (We're alone now)
(We're alone now)
I'll wait (We're alone now)
(We're alone now)
(We're alone now)
I'll wait (We're alone now)
(We're alone now)
(We're alone now)
(We're alone now)
(We're alone now)
Suddenly, I'm hit
Is this darkness of the dawn?
And your friends are gone
And your friends won't come
So show me where you fit
So show me where you fit
In a world you've grown
Few more years to go,
Don't let the hurdle fall
So be the girl you loved,
Be the girl you loved
I'll wait
So show me why you're strong
Ignore everybody else,
We're alone now
I'll wait
So show me why you're strong
Ignore everybody else,
We're alone now
Suddenly, I'm hit
Is this darkness of the dawn?
And your friends are gone
And your friends won't come
So show me where you fit
So show me where you fit
I'll wait
So show me why you're strong
Ignore everybody else,
We're alone now (We're alone now)
(We're alone now)
I'll wait (We're alone now)
(We're alone now)
(We're alone now)
I'll wait (We're alone now)
(We're alone now)
(We're alone now)
(We're alone now)
(We're alone now)
Suddenly, I'm hit
Is this darkness of the dawn?
And your friends are gone
And your friends won't come
So show me where you fit
So show me where you fit
For all intents and purposes, fortunate or un-, this is my life. -- Aisis
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