Silence=Death

DNFTT

I write because it heals
I write because it helps

It makes me whole
Again
It makes me feel
Like I can move on

And I will not.
Ever.
Silence.
Myself.

Allowing the pain to fester
Within
When the hurt is without
Feeling
Is.
Not.
An.
Option.

I am a writer.
I write.
I am a healer.
I heal.
I am a lover.
I love.

Me.
As well.

Your interpretation
Does not equal my imagination
Definitions
Expectations

If you break my heart
I will write
If you mend my soul
I will write
If I want to die
Because it hurts to live
My life
I will write.

And then I can move on
I can heal and feel whole
Again

And I will not.
Silence.
Myself.

Ever.



(DNFTT - Do not feed the trolls. A troll is someone who posts inflammatory, extraneous, or off-topic messages in an online community, such as an online discussion forum, chat room, or blog, with the primary intent of provoking readers into an emotional response or of otherwise disrupting normal on-topic discussion. No one in my circle would make such comments.)



For all intents and purposes, fortunate or un-, this is My Life.

Let the Circle Remain Broken

I thought I understood

Thought at 40

I was ok with it all

Could handle any and everything

I knew so much

Then I didn't know anything

at all

Now I just don't want to know this

And I never will.

Failure.

I failed on a major level

At the most important task

Of my entire life

I failed

With flying rainbow-blinding colors

And it wasn't even

Of my own demise.

Destruction and

Devastation

Rumbled through like a fucking

Hurricane

Katrina.

In just a few short days

It selfishly drowned through suffrage and toxic waste

Victimizing lives in irreversible ways

And without warning.

My apodictic speech caused glazed over eyes;

Oxymoronic circling.

Because I knew.

And you knew, too...

Didnt you

Life's a jealous bitch, I told you, right or wrong, you'd have to choose. It continues, this journey called Life, competing for my own soul, my own will, my giving in and my giving up.

Today proved which of us the winner would be.

And it wasn't me.

May we all rest in peace.

TB Let's Go!

TB Let's Go!

Last time....

Tara/Toni - So what was that whole "things coming atcha" when Tara showed up at Sookie's?

Bill Compton is the KANG of the ‘Sip? Wtfranklin?

Sooooo, this is how it all began…how do we feel that Bill killed the Queen? Was he doing this for his own selfish reason or was it for Sookie, if it was for Sook, WHY THE HAIL doesn’t he ever just get on with it and TELL her what the deal is? UGHHHH!

Sookie & Eric - Ok, how much do we LOVE that Eric bought the damn house?

OmGodrick!

Eric and the witches!! He does not remember anything!

Sam & the Horse chick & his brother: she runs away from and then goes for Sam! What have we seen her in??!! Where do we know her from!? She was Papi on The L Word! Shud sam give tommy another chance

Lafayette (LOVE HIM) & Jesus: Po’ lil tink tink (heehee@Katt Williams) he done mesed around and angered Eric one too many times. Mad jesus got him in this mess. Wth?

Terry, Arlene and her devil spawn - After hearing Sook say he’s an old soul Arlene flips her wig…”He’s new, he is brand fawking new!! “(Lol)..”I love that baby, I love that baby with all my heart!”

Ok, Andy Bellefleur is buffed and all hooked on V!

Jason and the Panther chick…

Jessica and Hoyt. Lets keep in mind that Jess is only 17 and a virgin every single time, she goes there. Wow, I would just not.

Pam's was the best line all night HE PULLS GOOD STRING…daggone what does that even mean???

....Today is not a good day

Have you ever just needed...?

Sometimes, not all, but some times...

What is the point?

The best way to get it done is to just

Get it done.

I remember complete independence, didn't know what it was like to depend

And then I did

And now I don't.

Some days are better than others.

Too much time on my tiny little hands.

Too many words in my chest, like daggers to my brain

Migraine.

Can't afford for my life

To rain on anyone else's parade.

This is not a plea

I'm just being me

Letting the chips fall where they may.

(Listening to this song always makes me feel better...)

Marvin Winans ~ You Just Don't Want to Know

I hurt so many nights. Cried so many hours. Trying to make it right. Just didn't have the power. You ignored all of my tears. In hopes they'd disappear. I tried to let it show.

But I guess... you just don't wanna know

I came to you in love. I came to you in earnest. Could you possibly explain? Why the flames, why the furnace? Just needing to get it clear. I was hoping you would hear. I tried to let it go.

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But I guess... you just don't wanna know.

Now it's true that God is always there, He said He'd never leave. But at times a human touch is what I need. And if I had a dime for every time I tried to call your name, Some tell me, I'd be wealthy.

But I learned that I could cope. I discovered I could make it. In nights so long and cold. So cold, you don't know how cold. I learned that I could take it. Now I wouldn't change a thing. Not for the knowledge, not for the knowledge that I've gained.

I learned that I could grow. I really did, I tried to let it show. I did. I tried to let it go.

But I guess... you just don't wanna know

For all intents and purposes, fortunate or un-, this is my Life ;-)~

Student splits 40K in winnings among runners-up

This story made my heart swell and my eyes water. Every once in a while, so much light shines through the darkness...

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July 5, 2011

Student splits 40K in winnings among runners-up

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The event - a foul-shooting contest for top academic students at Compton High School in Los Angeles - was created with a simple premise: Organizers wanted to show the kids at Compton how to create community spirit with college scholarship money as the incentive.

Allen Geui won in front of a packed house.

Following a tear-jerking gesture from the winner - it appears the true lessons learned were by the adults.

The kids in Compton are more than alright.

Three months after winning the $40,000 top prize, Allan Guei donated all of his winnings to the seven other finalists.

Guei, a star player on the basketball team who is headed to Cal-State Northridge on a full scholarship, said he felt the others could use the college cash more than he could. He wanted to give his classmates a chance to make their academic dreams come true, too.

"I've already been blessed so much and I know we're living with a bad economy, so I know this money can really help my classmates," he said in a release from the school. "It was the right decision."

One that stunned Court Crandall, the man behind the event.

"What he has done is exceptional, just like Allan," he said. "Like any young people, whether it's my kids or someone else's, you hope they are given opportunities to show what they can do. These Compton High grads have a lot of talent. They have a lot of drive, and I wish them all the best."

Crandall, a partner at the Southern California advertising firm WDCW and a hollywood screenwriter whose credits include "Old School," came up with the idea after watching his 16-year-old son play on a basketball team with some Compton students.

Crandall felt foul shooting was something that could unite a community regardless of racial divide. He felt doing it in Compton - a community battling an image problem - could help change those attitudes, too.

"I thought the free throw is a good metaphor in a world where there's a bunch of lines that are kind of dividing us," Crandall said afterward. "The focus became, how do we show the world another side of Compton, that's more positive, beyond the stereotypical guns and crime stuff."

The only requirement for the contest is that the students must have a GPA of 3.0 and above. After receiving nearly 100 applicants, eight contestants were chosen at random. The contest was held in March.

"My hope was that what started as a competition would become a collaboration with the kids supporting each other," Crandall told the L.A. Times. "They did, but in the end they did that to a much greater extent than I ever could have anticipated."

The students were filmed throughout the ordeal as part of a documentary that is scheduled to be released this fall.

One of the final scenes figures to be Compton principal Jesse Jones making the surprise announcement at the school's graduation in June.

"Allan is a great basketball player, but he is a better citizen than a basketball player," Jones said. "It's truly a blessing."

Even though Guei was a basketball star, Crandall allowed him to enter the contest to reward him for his academic efforts.

Guei would have been allowed to keep the money under NCAA rules. The other finalists, who will receive roughly $5,500, are thankful that he will not.

Donald Dotson, who also plans to attend Cal-State Northridge, said Guei is "a very deep, intelligent, and warm person."

Dotson figures his gesture will pay forward.

"He's going to go really far in life," he said. "Because of what he's done for us, God will bless him. That's what life is all about; stepping forward to help other people."

The irony in this story: Compton's boys basketball team advanced to the Southern Section Division 2AA title game last winter before losing . The team was done in by poor foul shooting.

For all intents and purposes, fortunate or un-, this is my Life ;-)~. Aisis